Sometimes i really wonder why am i with u??? Why do i even bother to keep u last time??? Why is it that i never get pay attention at??? Why AM I EVEN BORN?!? the last qn doesnt really appear until u and me started... but now, i ask them more often... Sometimes, u really think u bonded with ur classmates, but in actual fact, u get kicked aside more often then u hang out with them... Are they using u??? No... but cause everyone needs some really close friends... then whose mine??? In skool? My old life? there nv seems to have any ans to these qns... But mainly, Y in the world was i with u??? u nv seems to give me the attention... Nv even bother trying lookin me up... give u clues(very obvious ones) u dont understand... HAIX!!!!!!!!! i seriously wonder wad is wrong with me??? is either i'm not important in this world that me been born is a mistake or that i'm been born jux to make the number... U dont even bother bout me... that should be ur biggest mistake... U focus too much time into ur trainin... When are u going to start focusing on me?!? Do u even bother y i cried? Do u even bother to ask me if i'm ok? That i'm sick and u nv care... i only can say by the time u read my this post, it will be like ages old... U dont even bother to care... so fine... jux dont bother bout me and i will nv care bout urs... Everytime, i sms u, wad do u do??? NV reply... if not give me some excuse say like in class or wad-so-ever crap... and when u msg back, no matter how busy i was, i will still reply... tell me, how much time do u even bother bout me??? I CAN GIVE U THE ANS!!! LESS than ur trainin time... tat all i have to tell u... U are foreva busier then me... Cause of u, i really find me more bored then ever... I no longer was wad i was like... Well, part of the cause is me enterin poly... i have been no MORE out-going, talkative, cheerful... I have changed... tat all i have to say... Now, i'm the timid type, quiet until no one ever see me live, saddist and i dont noe wad negative stuffs can i think of... May cause i find it so hard to get engage in my classmates... all i can do, is jux sleep in class... or write notes tat is not even important... Or even simply thinkin of u... but guess wad, i dont tink u even thot of me... u think i'm an embarassment to u... ur friends laugh at u... but tat cause, i seriously dont know wad i see in u... U dont have e looks nor the brain... But tat ok wif me... but wad is it tat i see in u??? This qn actually nv come into me until a friend ask me... mayb ur concern? but i dont see it anymore... i'm jux not so sure anymore... yes, u may wan to patch, but u wan for the sake of having a galfriend... cause u r the only poly 1 who represent nyp for runnin... when i ask u to do me a favour, wad do u do??? reject... haix... i seriously dont noe wad got into me... but tat not going to happen anymore... I'm going back to my old self... my selfish old self... i am entitle to my own life... seen u wan to focus on urs... tat jux fine wif me... dont worry, i'm not goin to sucide or any other things... jux u dont have to care bout me... so, jux dont tink bout patchin up wif me... u may call me a coward or fussy or makin small matters grow big, using this way to tell u tat i dont think tat "we" are anymore possible... but at least tat i'm tellin u, dont bother to try anymore... yes, i may think bout u, but it will fade as time pass... yes, i may cry, but it will fade as time pass... yes, i may miss u, but it will fade as time pass... is not tat i nv give u time, but it jux tat... dont bother sms me after u read this... i might not reply...