Here again... haix... now, i really dont noe wad to with my life... i seriously cant focus on my work, my studies, my tutorial homework ( plaw, still stuck halfway)... I fuckin hell dont noe wad to do... all tankx to u... u crush even the last bits down until i dont even wan to survive anymore... haix... Yesterday, tat last msg, really crush all that is left of me... i really felt like openin the window and jux jumped down... tankx to roushan, yina and yun sheng who comfort me lor... haix... y??? y dont u even let me leave peacefully??? i seriously dont noe wad to do... every moment, i think of u... i may have deleted all ur msg, but only the last one, i kept... cause at least it reminds me on how u hated me to be ur galfriend... i didnt noe... i seriously cried yesterday after seeing it... parents asked, i said nth, but it hurts too deep tat i cant think properly... u keep saying everything mux go my way, but ever ask urself why everything went my way??? cause it always has been my decisions... everything is i decide... if u are not happy, at least voice out.... but u didnt... so dont blame me... i dont wan everything to go my way oso... sumthings i'm sick of going my way... but i cant blame me... i have changed... i have become so quiet tat i didnt noe i exist at all... but today, miss jasmine foo said something... i think tat really touches me alot... i cried... but no one saw... she said everyone has a story to tell behind all our faces. wad we will remember are the relationships that we built during these years. the friendship we had built... everyone of us are special, tat a different story can be told... tat she believed wad we can tell everyone... i cried... cause is her last lesson and she will be returning back to the law firm... yes, i may have heard it lots of time, but this is the 1st time i cried hearin it... the relationships we have built... me and you... i noe tat we will nv be together again... fine with me... at least let me recover... how long??? i'm jux not sure if i can resupressed that thot of killin myself... every single min, the time is eating at me... so jux how long can i take to recover??? i wan to forget u... i'm sry if i hurt u until u have to use basketball to recover the hurt... i didnt mean it by heart... but u noe u mean it tat last msg... cause it's the 1st time u tell me this... btw, i told u i went to see u play basketball is actually cause i wanted to talk to u face-to-face... but u were too happy playing tat i shall buried this deep within myself... forget it... i doubt u wan to hear them either... but, u see, at least i noe where to find u when u having ur downtime... but me??? have u wonder where to find me when i having my downtime??? i doubt so... since u really wan to noe where i stay, i shall tell u... level 6 beside the stairs... is jux opp ur hse... my is with the balcony... but i doubt u even care now y u wan to noe where i stay... i'm seriously sry tat i cause u to hate me... mayb u deserve a better person than me... i dont noe... u are free now to find who u wan to find... i wont bother bout u anymore... i wont disturb u anymore... i jux hope u well... all the best for wadeva u do next time... i noe, u wont even read my blog... so here is the last post specially design for u to read... i'm truly sry tat u hate me, but i love u still...

the last msg: yaya. u not my gf liao so pay less attention 2 u.
it shall be deleted frm my phone... i will even delete ur handphone number... i will delete u frm me...