back frm HSM 2day... hahax... NOT high school musical hor!!! is Hospitality Managment... & surprise surprise, we are not learnin e same things as tourism... zZz... we are learnin stuffs tat r related to real estate, my course, with abit of tourism as background... zZz... & THOSE STUFFS ARE MAINLY WAD WE ARE LEARNIN NOW LOR!!!!!!!! ECONOMIC, CILENT RELATIONSHIP MANAGEMENT & SO ON!!!!!!!! WITH (WTF) PURE GEOGRAPHY IN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! zZz... & as usual, already finish teachin cha 1... haix... zZz... & cher ask us to read papers... is lyk, how many teachers already ask me to read newspaper lor... but as stubborn as i m, i dont read... hahax... Oops... hahax...
2molo is comin soon enough... & 2molo, i get to pick my s&w choice... haix... i'm still dead for choice... i seriously dont noe which should i take...
DANCESPORT(back) OR VOLLEYBALL???
zZz... HOW?????????????????
Help me, pls... i'm in a bad state of mind... i'm not tink straight, i cant make e rite decisions, i'm in a lost... i'm no longer as confident as usual, i'm not doin anythin rite at all... i'm not listenin in class, & even if i do, it's not enterin... i'm aimless, i'm livin a dead life... so wad e use??? haix... i'm tinkin e wrong things at e wrong time... i'm jux keep tinkin it's not over... when e ans is so obvious... i seriously tink i shouldnt have met u e other day(thurs), doin wadeva we did... is jux messin all my mind up... i cant tink straight lyk i used to... wad e crap... wth... wtf...
WAD E HELL IS WRONG WIF ME??? Now, even my parents tink tat i m stuck in my studies... is lyk only cha 1 & nth is enterin... i'm so not in holiday mood at all but nth jux enters... is lyk my whole mind is all taken up already... & by u... Y??? Y??? Y??? no ans... cause tat shouldnt have being a question at all... it was a decision... & i'm not proud to admit it, i made e decision... wrong decision??? it seems to me... but i doubt it is for u... i'm sure u found sumone else u lyk... wad wrong wif me then??? M i jux too imperfect tat nth is rite at all??? tat i'm doin all e bloody wrong things at e wrong time... worse thing, is already over so long...
SO Y IN E BLOODY NAME OF GOD, DO I STILL GRIEVE OVER TAT MATTER??? CAUSE I CANT LET IT GO??? THEN IN E FIRST FUCKIN PLACE, Y DID I MAKE SUCH A DECISION???
forget it, my decision, my regret... nth can fit in now... nth can make time rewind... nth can make me redo wadeva i did... nth can make me resay wadeva i said... nth can make me re-act wadeva my attitude & problems was to u... nth can make us be back together again...
NTH CAN MAKE U MINE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! & vice visa...
i scream ur name in my dream, i dream of u every nite... & all cause of wad we were...
Sry, i took it too far down for me... i couldnt control my own emotions...
mayb i should jux go IMH & check in, statin i'm sick in e mind...
statin tat i'm weak emotionally... statin tat i have a mental prob... u said me once b4... sayin i have emotional prob... so here i m tellin u, u r rite it seems...
lovin u is not e way anymore... checkin in to IMH is...
Below are 3 pics taken wif me feelin e urge to suicide...
Emotional dispress state of a weak mind...
Bullyin me now is easier than b4...
Cheatin me now is easier than b4...
6 floor down is quite a distance to die...
Movies 2molo... wif anica, loy, yina...
CAN RETAIL THERAPY STILL WORK FOR ME???
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