Hello!

hahax... Can't believe i actually posted 131 posts for tis blog... geex... i seriously blog too much... hahax... hahax... k, found out i have another passion... COOKIN!!! Yeah... but not much of a good cook... hahax... but hey, is super nice in terms of deco & e food taste really good... well, i can cook wadeva u can find at e hawker centre... hahax... & some of those resturants food... SOME only... so dont force me to cook those i dont even noe one... hahax... anyway, being rottin at home... nth to do... so as a result of rottin, i need to go to e gym to trim away those fat... hahax... haix... of course, rottin at home also results in tinkin of nonsense... haix... really wish tat someone can jux tell me tat tis is all jux a lie... or tat i will wake up from my coma & think tat tis is seriously a bad dream... or someone to shout "cut", tat e show has ended... looks lyk none of e above will come thru anytime sooner... wadeva... so in conclusion, ur brain is e most powerful tool against death or wadeva wishes u wan it to happen, cause it will not happen... -.-||| hahax... dont noe wad crap i talkin... plus, i promise fiona tat i will not tink of tat fuckin person... haix... cause fuckin person meets pollute my mind... jux wish tat fuckin person will not find me at all... cause to me, he already equal to DEAD! i'm evil, say tat all u wan, but hey, if i dont b evil, i will nv forget tat kind of scrumbag... or better, tat kinda of schmuck... waste of my precious youth on tis kinda of ppl... haix... misspent... but wadeva, it will not happen... i gotten to learn to control my level of fallin into a relationship... test e water for longer than i did for tis... but hey, always learn a lesson frm tis mistake... ya, lyk as if i will learn de... hahax... wadeva... but anyway, i guess i can actually forget bout him... cause i keep questionin myself if he really love me at all???(when we were 2gether) haix... & i keep tinkin e ans is no... cause if he really love me, then he wont hop off so fast... haix... anyway, it's goin to b a long process... but hey, i'm forgettin him bit by bit everyday... & soon, it will b over... jux lyk love paradox tat song, one part of e song states: Y cant i let it go? I'm not a fool for love... so i shall b no fool, & forgettin him will b my priority... yeah!

Ciao... got to find something else to do... damn it... sian lyk siao... when is my job goin to start???????????????????????????????????????????????????????

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k, i'm zoned out by boredom... zZz... already blog surf for a while... then help my sis wrote her chinese storybk due 2molo... zZz... realise chinese still sucks big time for me... zZz... can't help it... even yesterday, one auntie at ps talked to me in chinese when i ask her in english... obviously, they tink i loved chinese... geex... wadeva... but cant b bother to improve my chinese... zZz... hahax... really bored... OMG!!! How m i goin to pass my time until my job start??? zZz... i'm bored... i'm bored... i'm bored... i'm bored... i'm bored... geex... help me pass time... Oh ya, i'm freak out... results comin out 2molo... & worst, BOTH MY PARENTS ARE HAUNTIN ME WIF THE LOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M DEAD MEAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IF I DONT GET GPA 3.5, I'M DEAD... but well, at least i dont have to kill myself... hahax... so if they kill me, i can pass on to another life, forgettin this misery & my damn exam results... so last words, friends, i love u... tank for carin for me... as for tat jerk playboy, i purposely make u angry wif me... cause i cant keep tinkin whether u love me or not... but up to now, i still love u...

zZz... better spend my last hrs to e fullest!!!!!!!!! hahax... but if my results are good, then i take back my last words... zZz... cause i will go to cafe cartel to celebrate... but tat is if it is good la... BUT, i noe myself, it wont... haix... zZz...

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I'm bored... results at 9am... shit... damn scared liao... haix... wad to do??? at least last time, not good, complain to him... now, fail, killed by parents... haix... i cant even complained to him... haix... goes to show, no one to comfort me if i really jumpin off e buildin... wad e crap is wrong wif me??? i cant even tink properly... wad crap??? i mux start beatin e crap out of me... haix... cant tink straight... Y did he do tis to me??? Did i owe him in e last life??? tat y i'm sufferin now??? i seriously tink is lyk tat lor... mayb i'm a playgirl last life, tat y tis life, i'm failed by a playboy... in order to noe wad's e feelin of being played... haix... Y can't i predict e future first b4 i fall for him??? Y??? haix... if i noe, i wouldnt fall rite??? mayb tat y i didnt noe... cause god wans me to fall... haix... good lor... now, fallen liao, how??? somemore is deep hole leh... very hard to climb out... no equipments to help me... i wan a rope & lots of tings to stable my journey to e top... zZz... but i dont noe y, i still wan him... Mayb cause i cant get over those times we spend together... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! k, i'm not goin to write anymore... if not, it will nv stop...