Love tis song... damn suit my mood now... haix... emo ppl lyk me, love tis song... oso, love her moves...

Yo peeps!

k, i try my best to be happy... but tankx yina & alicia for accompanyin me 2day & try to cheer me up... haix... seriously emo tis time around... k, shall start wif 2day events...

11/9

went out in e mornin, cause yihui called me e nite b4 (10/9) tat they request to meet us for e job... so went in e mornin... didnt catch a wink last nite... shall explain tis later... but e person of tis may concern de, will nv read my blog anymore liao... cause i'm jux a nobody to him... anyway, woke up tis mornin at 6 plus... or at least jux got out of bed... then read a bit of my nora roberts jux to take my mind of him... didnt seems to work... then went to bath... left hse at 8.45am... took bus to pasir ris... slack awhile at e bus stop b4 cabbin in to enter e place... but since yihui haven reach, i waited for her... then interview a while, seems lyk e job damn cool la... & my parents allow me to work weekends... yeah!!! then anyway, walked out frm tat office... couldnt find a cab when i wan to take one... so walk in front cause tat couple playin behind make me feel lyk light bulb... hahax... no offence, yihui... anyway, then we bus here & there then give up go back compass... suppose to meet alicia at 11.30am, but since she late & i needed e time to empty my head & my feelins & my emotion & my damn tears at e corner of my eyes... so i walked my blk there for a while, alone, then gave up, so went home... but cause it's home, so i have to put on a tough front... then do a bit of hsehold chores, & left hse again... talked to alicia bout tat thing while waitin for yina... then head for town... went to e cathy first... cause alicia need to repair her 2 phone... while waitin for alicia repairin, i gave up & told yina... cause i need to make sure wad i did was rite... then went off again to mac hse e this fashion... walked abit... then head for yina's dental... arrive at wheellock 5 mins b4 e appointment... while waitin, alicia lend me her psp & played... didnt seems to lift my mood... so anyway, walked e fightin game... forgot e name... then head back to cineleisure... wanted to find yun sheng, but again, i tink he nv worked 2day... nvm... then loy wanted to eat jap food, so intro them to go eat tat shop... so sat there & eat... damn weird lor... cause all enter one are all couples... so e 3 galx, seatin there eatin while couples were also eatin... haix... again, freakin hell remind of him... shit la... i tink i sooner or later, goin to suffer frm depression... then, went to newurbanmale to see flip-flops... damn it... bought one for myself... hahax... bought green HAVAIANAS... (my 1st pair!!!) wanted pink slim but dont look good on me... so bought e green... plus, no my size... then convince alicia to buy... she need to ask her mum first... then went to take neoprint... damn freakin long nv take liao... again, bloody freakin hell, remind me of him... cause we wanted to take but didnt manage to find one, so nv took... took & went to design... hahax... shocked how come e time suddenly stop... cause damn long nv take le, forgot got time stop de... then design those photos... shall upload once i scan those photos in... cause lazy to take photo of e neoprints... then next stop, went to see got wad movie to watch... tat 2 wanted to watch 4bia, but too bad, timin no fit... so nv watch... they still wan to drag me to go watch... hahax... i'm still all no for tat movie... cause is ghost movie... if i watch de hua, 2nite again no need to sleep le... haix... so went shoppin... then went to buy famous amos cookies... hahax... now, poor alicia got worst cough... hahax... but she e one tat one to eat de... hahax... so anyway, went to HMV... cause loy again want to buy cds... her korean bands... got FT ISLAND, SHINEE, SUPER JUNIORS, DBFS... but fail to find FT ISLAND album... asked, they said sold out liao... hahax... alicia no luck la... hahax... while alicia was lookin at her disc, went to hear Leah Dizon's album... heard a bit of e album of communication by her... love her songs... shall find her song & put it as my blog song if i free... hahax... then bought her album... i'm weak to buyin of goods... haix... so bought tat album... nice jap songs... actually, didnt noe her until danson & jiro intro her... so hear her songs, quite nice... for an america to learn jap in a year & produce her album is damn cool le lor... haix... k, shall learn jap... hahax... then walked to ps to go played arcade... played bball & drivin... which damn it, remind me of tat idiot pig... may he rot in hell... may i NV EVER SEE HIM WALKED ON EARTH AGAIN!!!!!!!!! I seriously pity his new girlfriend... haix... if i noe her, should tell her she is wif a playboy... haix... nvm... later tat girlfriend beat me, i scared... hahax... jkjk... i not so free to go find ppl gf lor... anyway, again as usual, lost in drivin... bball manage to go round 3 wif alicia... team wif yina, didnt beat tat score set by alicia & me... hahax... then left for home... saw sp db ppl, means edna & mil la... edna mux hate me by now... hahax... cause keep messin wif her hair... hahax... then anyway, went home... couldnt find my mp3, but i actually forgot tat i kept in tat pocket in my bag... thot i lost my ring, but found it beside my camera... anyway, seatin in my room, listenin to my newly bought album... damn nice, i got to admit... love her "dancin type" of songs... later, shall watch her Music Video...
See my shoppin bags... hahax... e tins i bought...



my shoppin bags...



e tins i bought...


My 1st HAVAIANAS... is called jade green... "boyfriend", dont b jealous i got ur colour... hahax...



Leah Dizon's album... 2nd album, i tink... TTT... totally too terific... k, many will not agree... but i lyk some of her songs...


neoprints taken... cut into 3 strips, & cost 11 bucks... shit, damn ex...

k, now bout yesterday...

10/9

mil's b'day... wishin u a happy belated b'day on my blog... k, back to those events... went to gym... met yina, her sis & her dad there... train my stamina... obviously, dropped lyk siao again... haix... nvm, shall train it back...

but b4 goin gym, met him to pass him his present... cause some ppl too busy to claim ma... so no choice... pass to him, he msg back say he very remorseful... haix... cant say much... so jux tell him no need to feel remorseful, & he reply ok... WAD!!!!!!!!?????!!!!!! so anyway, cause didnt speak wif each other for weeks, thot might work, as in help to forget him... but i cant so i lied when he asked me if i still feel for him, & by quite a lot... said sometimes but is everytime... so when msgin, i gave up includin my pride, to ask if wan patch up, tat dumb ass, say i too late... cause he got a new gf liao... haix... e day b4 ask him, if he got go find any gf, he say he no time... then next day, say got new gf liao... shit... tears on e verge already... mayb cause not fated... but prob is, is not even 3 weeks of break-up, he say he got new gf liao... haix... isnt tis a playboy??? haix... then argue wif him... cause i scold him playboy, he say i anyhow say him... but isnt tat e fact??? somemore, he himself say he still feel a bit for me... & wad's next??? NEW GF!!!!!!!!!!! wadeva... i really dont noe wad to do... haix... so cried thru-out e nite... try my best to forget him, but i cant... i feel so hurt... so angry... i feel tat i'm a fool... for fallin for a playboy... haix... i really dont noe wad to do... yes, yina & alicia agree wif me... say they(includin ying duan) will box him if they see him... ha... as if will see tis type of ppl... i myself nv even see him b4 around my area, say they will see him... hahax... didnt sleep last nite, cause tat msg been playin around my head... hammered my head against e wall lots of times last nite... no blood... i wanted blood... i wanted to see if i can kill myself... i even took a scissors to cut myself... didnt tell anyone bout tis... yet i wrote it here... haix... dont noe y i wrote it here... no point... nobody reads it anyway... haix... jux dont noe y i feel so empty, feel so hollow... feel lyk an idiot... a fool... all i can do is cry... i even feel cheated... did he even love me b4??? i really doubt it now... wad shit is happenin to me??? e aftermath of a love sickness??? i jux wan some ans... haix... didnt noe i could do tis... saw ppl do it in sec 3, scolded ppl for doin all these actions, yet i do it to myself... wad e hell is wrong wif me... i nv feel so empty b4... i nv felt so... ... ... useless... i... ... ... haix... i dont noe wad to do la... ppl keep tellin me how bad he is, yet i still feel for him... wad's wrong wif me??? i cant even convince ppl tat he changed... if i cant coonvince them, how did i in e world convince myself... haix... i oso dont noe la... yet, after all tis, i still feel lyk murderin myself... haix... jux hope tat my new job will keep me busy enough to forget bout e pain... if not, i really might jux jump off a buildin...

★Hello!★

Bored again... well, life's pretty bored... Yawn! F★★★... nth special happenin... so bored... so sleepin kills time... so i suppose 2nite i will sleep damn late again... keep sleepin in e afternoon... zZz... so bored... anyway, i'm sick of outside food... haix... seriously causin headache for tinkin of wad to eat... & headache over wad to cook for dinner... geex... i'm so not goin to b a hsewife... tough life... hsehold chores plus cookin... haix... i'm really dead by doin all these everyday for e past few weeks... geex... k, nth to much to write actually... mayb subway for 2molo... cause CP's subway is OPEN!!! hahax... but i wan go gym to train stamina first... hmmm...



★PS: "Boyfriend", wad time meetin on thu???

★PSS: Loy, 2molo go gym... Plzzz...

★PSSS: Fiona, which gym u wan go??? no skool one plz... cause damn far... & i haven sign up for tat damn card anyway...

★Hello!★

damn freakin long nv blog... hahax... came back frm mornin interview for tat job... will call me to tell me if got e job... hahax... Now, watchin hi-5 cum bloggin cum smsin cum readin other ppl's blog cum listenin to music... hahax... i'm so good in multi-taskin... hahax... k, shall write bout yesterday...

7/9/08

Went to mildred's b'day party... but b4 tat, went to get present for her... so meet at 12.30pm... i was late... cause i was meetin those late ppl... so is ok if i'm late... hahax... BUT BUT, i got ppl at my hse ma... so mux play hostess... hahax... so is unavoidable late... haha... if not i always early de... not my habit to make ppl wait... but i oso hate waitin for ppl... hahax... but nvm... is not lyk everytime ma... anyway, met alicia & yina at cp b4 headin to AMK hub... actually was plannin to go town... end up we go there instead... met anica at AMK hub... head for artbox first... thot of those gifts but end up say go minitoons... i told them to enter some shop beside mini toons... cause tat shop oso sells gifts... & well, errr... sex games... hahax... but anyway, went in and wanted to buy e puzzle plus frame... ( ps: which we bought in e end...) then after tat, went in to mini toons to look at cushion... but decided against the cushion... went for e puzzle... head to nebo for lunch... hahax... first time enter... but anyway, took a freakin long time to decide on lunch... but e time we decide wad's for lunch, it was already 4 plus... hahax... was lyk lookin at e menu for lyk half-an-hr... zZz... order myself a triple treat plus set meal 2 ( means a drink & ice-cream)... of course, yina ate e ice-cream... anica(plus set meal 1 : a drink & soup of e day...) & alica ordered a roasted chicken sandwich which was freakin big... lucky me to decide for western food... hahax... anyway, stay there until late 5 plus... lots of jokes when eatin... hahax... laugh until stomach so full... head back to tat shop to wrap de puzzle... hahax... reached mildred's hse at around 6.30pm... missed by 1 bus stop... hahax... so anyway, headed to her hse... felt seriously weird... cause mainly her poly friends... only e 4 of us & mayb edna & mil are sec friends... seriously felt odd one out... hahax... but anyway, saw there & chat... then took loy's psp to play... kept passin around... hahax... 1psp, 4 ppl play... then after tat, went to dinin table & eat... lyk only chicken wings... chatted wif her uncle, auntie, dad & mum... then after tat, went to play tai di... hahax... end up i win lyk 3 rounds out of 4... hahax... but tank god nv play $$... cause e first round, i will lose lyk siao... hahax... 2 aces in my hand... will lyk po kai... haix... anyway, waited for her to cut cake... after tat, took photos... lots... then continue wif tai di... hahax... left at 9.45pm... then went down to her playground & played lyk some siao children lor... LOL!!!!! especially those swings... hahax... anica said she complainin to her town council how come her blk dont have tat type of facilities... hahax... i so totally have to agree wif her... i should also complain... hahax... played tat "see-saw" lyk so long... hahax... took 86 back home... reach home at 10.06pm... bathed & all, left there readin my all-time favourite nora roberts writing as J.D Robb... slept at 1 or so??? dreamin away to wonderland... hahax... then woke up tis mornin to head for interview... hahax... photos up next...



At Nebo... printed one copy and put it at e back of e puzzle...



Self-timer... damn lousy... hahax... time to change camera...



The puzzle...



Another shot...



My "boyfriend" & me... (cause of some jokes we make...)



I looked so weird cause i moved...



Funny shot... alicia waitin for me to bully her... hahax... anica as usual, bullyin ppl... hahax...



actin cute...



us & e b'day girl... tat her in e sp shirt...

k, tat ciao for now... more update next time... hahax... outin more plzzzzzzzz... but i got to work... if i get e job first... hahax...

PS: eugene, if u r readin tis, plz get back to me when u claimin ur thing!!!!!!!

PSS: Loy & AHNA aka My "boyfriend", pei me go GYM!!!!!!!!! I wan train stamina... so i can take up track for my "P.E" next sem... hahax... & cause i need go back dancin... so need to train stamina... SWIMMIN oso can... train my breathin pace... hahax...

Hello!

back frm dinner... hahax... came back lyk around 4.30pm... cause went out... at first is go suntec but then yihui called, so went for job interview... hahax... but anyway, monday got interview at some pet shop... i might be sellin pet food... hahax... FOR DOGS!!! hahax... anyway, went to recuit express again 2day... but nah, i tink no hope... anyway, wish me luck for monday interview... hahax... i wan a job badly... haix... so i can take my mind lots of tings... haix... anyway, tat all... cause my life is so boring... so nth much to write... hahax...

stay tune to more of my ever boring life... hahax... Ciao...

PS: FIONA, U BETTER NOT QUIT UR JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! U NOE HOW HARD IT IS TO FIND A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT SINCE NOW U GOT SALE EXPERIENCE, GO LOOK FOR TAT MOONCAKE JOB... IS BACK ON THE PAPER!!!!!!

PSS: CAN SOMEONE WAKE ME UP ON MONDAY, IF NOT I WONT B ABLE TO MAKE IT FOR TAT INTERVIEW?????????

PSSS: ALICIA, SUNDAY MORNIN WAD TIME????

PSSSS: ANICA, CAN U MAKE IT????

PSSSSS: YINA, CAN U MAKE IT????

PSSSSSS: I WAN LOTS OF LUCKS FOR TAT JOB!!!!!!!!!

PSSSSSSS: I WAN GO GYM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello!

back wif a new change... hahax... dont get wad i mean??? then ur eyes are obviously blind... hahax... dont mean to curse... but u can't see i change my blogskin??? then it is really OMG!!! & u GG liao... hahax... k... nth much to write bout... cause still waitin for ppl to call me to tell me they got job for me... sob sob... but meanwhile, yesterday went out for a short while wif anica to tampines to sign up wif recruit express (again, for me...) haix... looks like hope damn dim... shit... but i wan to work... i'm bored to death at home... then 2day, cooked dinner... dotx... now, "i have become a housewife"... geex... jeex... haix... cookin, hsehold chores, takin care of elderly, wad's next??? soon, no job, can become maid... -_-||| haix... seriously bored myself to death... I WAN A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!! SEE PPL!!!!!!!!!!! ANY PASSER-BY WHO HAS A JOB IN SGP, CAN ASK ME TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAX... well, pay mux b i wan one lor... and job requirement mux b within wad i wan to do, then tell me... k??? hahax...

mayb cause i'm bored, nth to do, now, i'm tinkin of him again... shit... haix... here i m in sgp, he is somewhere in hong kong tourin... wadeva... but i wan go back hong kong to buy boots... hahax... see hong kong = shoppin = buyin boots!!!!!!!! hahax...

Ciao...

I tink tis song is definitely wad i'm feelin rite now... or at least for tis period of time... Enjoy...

Cry by Rihanna

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got that whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I strayed from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give IT to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I strayed from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you, I'll never know
I never meant to let it get so personal
And After all I tried to do to stay away from love with you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...

i'm freakin bored... nth to do... geex... mayb i should go wif anica for e interview 2molo... hahax... yup... i should... but is long-term de leh... mayb i should... but parents dont agree to long-term job... sharks... hmmm... but i wan to work long-term... at least it keeps my mind occupy... at least it takes my mind of u... i seriously tink i fallen too deep tis time around... but wadeva... retail therapy will get me thru... hahax... went to eye centre again, came back... then went to cp to buy my favourite dragon beard... hahax... always has a weakness for it... same thing goes for chocolate, coffee, ice cream... especially cookies & cream chocolate... or white chocolate... or mofca... hahax... hmmm... readin my nora roberts book now... damn interestin book... cause murder is always such a beautiful art work by human killin another human tat is resulted frm e left-over effect of war... yes, we dont see much of such "events" in sgp, but isn't it interesting??? guess, i'm sick... but in tat book, where e rich are bloody rich, it seems so normal... e main character Lieutenant Eve Dallas and her muilti-billionaire Husband, Roarke... haix... if life can jux b lyk Eve... her life dont seems to have any dull moments... but e sad thing is, she's not a social-butterfly... but how life can b lyk her... haix... such a lovin husband who happens to b rich... a hse so big... haix... in my fantasy little world, mayb it might happen...

ciao for now... i shall go back to dreamin bout life as Eve instead of me... cause all i tink about is u... geex... can't i ever tink of anything else other than u??? wadeva...