Yo peeps!

k, i try my best to be happy... but tankx yina & alicia for accompanyin me 2day & try to cheer me up... haix... seriously emo tis time around... k, shall start wif 2day events...

11/9

went out in e mornin, cause yihui called me e nite b4 (10/9) tat they request to meet us for e job... so went in e mornin... didnt catch a wink last nite... shall explain tis later... but e person of tis may concern de, will nv read my blog anymore liao... cause i'm jux a nobody to him... anyway, woke up tis mornin at 6 plus... or at least jux got out of bed... then read a bit of my nora roberts jux to take my mind of him... didnt seems to work... then went to bath... left hse at 8.45am... took bus to pasir ris... slack awhile at e bus stop b4 cabbin in to enter e place... but since yihui haven reach, i waited for her... then interview a while, seems lyk e job damn cool la... & my parents allow me to work weekends... yeah!!! then anyway, walked out frm tat office... couldnt find a cab when i wan to take one... so walk in front cause tat couple playin behind make me feel lyk light bulb... hahax... no offence, yihui... anyway, then we bus here & there then give up go back compass... suppose to meet alicia at 11.30am, but since she late & i needed e time to empty my head & my feelins & my emotion & my damn tears at e corner of my eyes... so i walked my blk there for a while, alone, then gave up, so went home... but cause it's home, so i have to put on a tough front... then do a bit of hsehold chores, & left hse again... talked to alicia bout tat thing while waitin for yina... then head for town... went to e cathy first... cause alicia need to repair her 2 phone... while waitin for alicia repairin, i gave up & told yina... cause i need to make sure wad i did was rite... then went off again to mac hse e this fashion... walked abit... then head for yina's dental... arrive at wheellock 5 mins b4 e appointment... while waitin, alicia lend me her psp & played... didnt seems to lift my mood... so anyway, walked e fightin game... forgot e name... then head back to cineleisure... wanted to find yun sheng, but again, i tink he nv worked 2day... nvm... then loy wanted to eat jap food, so intro them to go eat tat shop... so sat there & eat... damn weird lor... cause all enter one are all couples... so e 3 galx, seatin there eatin while couples were also eatin... haix... again, freakin hell remind of him... shit la... i tink i sooner or later, goin to suffer frm depression... then, went to newurbanmale to see flip-flops... damn it... bought one for myself... hahax... bought green HAVAIANAS... (my 1st pair!!!) wanted pink slim but dont look good on me... so bought e green... plus, no my size... then convince alicia to buy... she need to ask her mum first... then went to take neoprint... damn freakin long nv take liao... again, bloody freakin hell, remind me of him... cause we wanted to take but didnt manage to find one, so nv took... took & went to design... hahax... shocked how come e time suddenly stop... cause damn long nv take le, forgot got time stop de... then design those photos... shall upload once i scan those photos in... cause lazy to take photo of e neoprints... then next stop, went to see got wad movie to watch... tat 2 wanted to watch 4bia, but too bad, timin no fit... so nv watch... they still wan to drag me to go watch... hahax... i'm still all no for tat movie... cause is ghost movie... if i watch de hua, 2nite again no need to sleep le... haix... so went shoppin... then went to buy famous amos cookies... hahax... now, poor alicia got worst cough... hahax... but she e one tat one to eat de... hahax... so anyway, went to HMV... cause loy again want to buy cds... her korean bands... got FT ISLAND, SHINEE, SUPER JUNIORS, DBFS... but fail to find FT ISLAND album... asked, they said sold out liao... hahax... alicia no luck la... hahax... while alicia was lookin at her disc, went to hear Leah Dizon's album... heard a bit of e album of communication by her... love her songs... shall find her song & put it as my blog song if i free... hahax... then bought her album... i'm weak to buyin of goods... haix... so bought tat album... nice jap songs... actually, didnt noe her until danson & jiro intro her... so hear her songs, quite nice... for an america to learn jap in a year & produce her album is damn cool le lor... haix... k, shall learn jap... hahax... then walked to ps to go played arcade... played bball & drivin... which damn it, remind me of tat idiot pig... may he rot in hell... may i NV EVER SEE HIM WALKED ON EARTH AGAIN!!!!!!!!! I seriously pity his new girlfriend... haix... if i noe her, should tell her she is wif a playboy... haix... nvm... later tat girlfriend beat me, i scared... hahax... jkjk... i not so free to go find ppl gf lor... anyway, again as usual, lost in drivin... bball manage to go round 3 wif alicia... team wif yina, didnt beat tat score set by alicia & me... hahax... then left for home... saw sp db ppl, means edna & mil la... edna mux hate me by now... hahax... cause keep messin wif her hair... hahax... then anyway, went home... couldnt find my mp3, but i actually forgot tat i kept in tat pocket in my bag... thot i lost my ring, but found it beside my camera... anyway, seatin in my room, listenin to my newly bought album... damn nice, i got to admit... love her "dancin type" of songs... later, shall watch her Music Video...
See my shoppin bags... hahax... e tins i bought...



my shoppin bags...



e tins i bought...


My 1st HAVAIANAS... is called jade green... "boyfriend", dont b jealous i got ur colour... hahax...



Leah Dizon's album... 2nd album, i tink... TTT... totally too terific... k, many will not agree... but i lyk some of her songs...


neoprints taken... cut into 3 strips, & cost 11 bucks... shit, damn ex...

k, now bout yesterday...

10/9

mil's b'day... wishin u a happy belated b'day on my blog... k, back to those events... went to gym... met yina, her sis & her dad there... train my stamina... obviously, dropped lyk siao again... haix... nvm, shall train it back...

but b4 goin gym, met him to pass him his present... cause some ppl too busy to claim ma... so no choice... pass to him, he msg back say he very remorseful... haix... cant say much... so jux tell him no need to feel remorseful, & he reply ok... WAD!!!!!!!!?????!!!!!! so anyway, cause didnt speak wif each other for weeks, thot might work, as in help to forget him... but i cant so i lied when he asked me if i still feel for him, & by quite a lot... said sometimes but is everytime... so when msgin, i gave up includin my pride, to ask if wan patch up, tat dumb ass, say i too late... cause he got a new gf liao... haix... e day b4 ask him, if he got go find any gf, he say he no time... then next day, say got new gf liao... shit... tears on e verge already... mayb cause not fated... but prob is, is not even 3 weeks of break-up, he say he got new gf liao... haix... isnt tis a playboy??? haix... then argue wif him... cause i scold him playboy, he say i anyhow say him... but isnt tat e fact??? somemore, he himself say he still feel a bit for me... & wad's next??? NEW GF!!!!!!!!!!! wadeva... i really dont noe wad to do... haix... so cried thru-out e nite... try my best to forget him, but i cant... i feel so hurt... so angry... i feel tat i'm a fool... for fallin for a playboy... haix... i really dont noe wad to do... yes, yina & alicia agree wif me... say they(includin ying duan) will box him if they see him... ha... as if will see tis type of ppl... i myself nv even see him b4 around my area, say they will see him... hahax... didnt sleep last nite, cause tat msg been playin around my head... hammered my head against e wall lots of times last nite... no blood... i wanted blood... i wanted to see if i can kill myself... i even took a scissors to cut myself... didnt tell anyone bout tis... yet i wrote it here... haix... dont noe y i wrote it here... no point... nobody reads it anyway... haix... jux dont noe y i feel so empty, feel so hollow... feel lyk an idiot... a fool... all i can do is cry... i even feel cheated... did he even love me b4??? i really doubt it now... wad shit is happenin to me??? e aftermath of a love sickness??? i jux wan some ans... haix... didnt noe i could do tis... saw ppl do it in sec 3, scolded ppl for doin all these actions, yet i do it to myself... wad e hell is wrong wif me... i nv feel so empty b4... i nv felt so... ... ... useless... i... ... ... haix... i dont noe wad to do la... ppl keep tellin me how bad he is, yet i still feel for him... wad's wrong wif me??? i cant even convince ppl tat he changed... if i cant coonvince them, how did i in e world convince myself... haix... i oso dont noe la... yet, after all tis, i still feel lyk murderin myself... haix... jux hope tat my new job will keep me busy enough to forget bout e pain... if not, i really might jux jump off a buildin...