if only...

when will the wheel of fortune start turning around and be pleasant for me? much as i appreciate everything i have now, i really hope my 3 wishes will come true. looking for job is a test of patience, and i got to declare that my patience is running low. after sending much applications out, none replied. either i'm asking too high a price (which many tells me i didn't and should have ask higher.) or the job market now is really that bad until too much graduates, not much demand for them. haix. i can only hope for the better. wish my positive mind can be kept up longer. guess i told everyone to stay positive after hearing all their problems, i can't help but feeling the effects of their negatively poured into me. if only i was back to how i used to share my feelings out, if only my heart allows another person in, maybe it might be different. but i know i can't, because that person took it and left. if only.........