i really wonder how i live thru tis 2 weeks man... *faints*
but first ting first,
I'M STARTING WORK 2MOLO!!!! >.<
mayb cause i'm "on leave" for too long, i'm havin all e nerves on tis job...
i'm afraid tat the colleagues will be unfriendly, afraid tat i might not do my best cause it's not related to pets, afraid tat i might get push ard cause i'm a newbie, afraid tat i'll be lonely in tis new place, afraid tat i get those colleagues lyk *ahem* (tat time 1st day tat gal), afraid tat mayb retail isnt for me, afraid tat i'll be too bored cause there's customers on weekdays, afraid tat i might be too tired & end up really havin to let go e little time tat we spend together, afraid tat e make-up will make me wan to sleep more, afraid tat i might get hungry too easily, afraid tat i make mistakes lyk last time, afraid of meetin certain type of customers cause tis is a new ground i'm steppin on... aiya, jiu shi afraid here and there la... but e main fear for now is tat colleagues are unfriendly...
okay, mayb i'm super afraid of tat... haix... i jux hope everyting go smoothly while i'm workin there... cause i wan my job to be a pleasant workin experience... :) but my fear got e better of me... :(
wad's worst is tat i dun have trainin first lyk planned... i'm jux goin ahead & work e first day i'm there... :(
suppose by now, quite a few of u will be wonderin where i'm headin for work... well, tis is it...
yes, everyday USS, not for play but for work... :( n i haven even been to USS b4! :( how unfair...
anyway, finally tis friday... how i wish i can spend more time wif nichkie but i got work... haix... nvm, we'll work it out sumhow... but still, i wish i can spend more time wif him... 1 week 2 days gone by, & when he's out, i'm in for work... haix... anyway, let's jux hope friday i'll be able to make everyting go accordin to plan... yes, i said i got no plan, well, actually is dun have la, but still, jux a mini one... hopefully i'll be able to be at white sands when he reached e interchange... hopefully la... let's jux hope he books out early... or rather, ard 7 ba... okay, forget it, jux let him out early can liao... i'll work a back-up plan then... hopefully my trainin on friday will end early then... :X well, it has to be either way la... :X really miss him... but i'm more or less really gettin used to it le... at least now i'm controllin it better...
sumwhere wifin me already decided to give him e space tat he needs it, to drift off a bit back... it's workin pretty well for me... at least i wont be tinkin crazy thots anymore, wont be tempted at all, wont b missin him 24/7, give it to him... at least i noe he'll be busy trainin, while i'm able to focus on my work on hand...
but at least now, it's still an honest r/s unlike sum ass who doesnt understand wad it meant, & i suppose will nv understand at all... haix... i wish tat he jux doesnt come disturb our peace will do...
okay, now really mux off to bed liao... if not 2molo i wont get to work... hahahaha... :X
