& so the years have passed, & we have aged badly... those 3 years are memorable history tat we once lived, but the treasures bought on will be treasured... jux felt lyk postin tis photos... hmmm... guess tat's bout it...
*cont job hunt* *tink i should lower my expected pay*
*random thot 1* : sumtimes i wonder when being a bitch, dealin wif another bitch, does it bite back at u... it's a wonder y i'm always bitten but only manage to bite others jux once... and no, tis doesnt fall under e category of once bitten twice shy... or do there? mayb cause i'm lackin of sleep (or rather over-flow of sleep), dreams & nitemares starts to tell it's own stories & i'm highly wonderin whether it'll be true or not (seeing tat so many actually happened & i dreamt of them b4...) i jux wish it doesn't... but who is to noe wad e future will hold...
*random thot 2* : jealousy is a powerful act which can bri one to it's anger highest peak... & jealousy too shows how much u actually care for tat person... if i dun get jealous, does tat mean i dun care for tat person? or does jealousy oso have a level of judgement lyk tolerance level tat kind of ting? i wish it was e latter... not cause i dun care, but i hardly get jealous... tried to work up jealousy feel a dozen of times, but it jux doesnt work itself up to e peak... i wish it was jealousy so i can explain my actions of doing, but it hardly feels lyk it... it feels lyk i'm preparing nth to get ready for nth... or mayb cause my dreams keep tellin me another ting, so i tend to do all these... i wonder which is e rite explanations for everyting tat i'm doing...
*random thot 3* : yes i noe, i started an attack on her... but tat's after reachin my peak of tolerance for such nonsenses! but then, i suppose i expect a more straight forward attack than to be blocked off frm such tings... i wish i knew wad i can do to take a look at everyting she tried to attack me frm e back... i dunno if i can tolerant wadeva she said at e back... i'm sure she's not over it, even when she said she had all e flings & all tat... i'm sure tat was to get over him, but yet it feels lyk sumting worst is goin to happen jux tat i have no idea wad it would be... i suppose u can say cause my dreams started all these goin, but then again, is it? i dun blame it cause it's my own doing... but still, my curiosity is killing me to noe!!!
*yet another random thot*: i'm kinda of glad tat oct 22 is a sat... guess we'll have to see until then...
okay, off to sleep already...
