슈퍼주니어 - 너라고 (it's you) - super junior

sometimes i really wonder how come love jux has to be tat hurtful... if it hurts, how come ppl lyks to beautify it so much wif all e schmucks and hearts and cupids and wadsoeva... it may seems to some that love is all sweet and all tat... i understand... but it doesnt seems to happen to many... love tis topic by itself is already a tough topic... hurt, killin occurs cause of it... in fact, one of the most common reason for killin is love... murder been one of it's greatest method of revenge, has many motives... one being love... or rather the 7 greatest sins... in which lust is often linked to love... been a murderer doesnt always mean it's doin sometin wrong... it can jux mean u are doin sumtin rite in another sense tat not many can understand... it oftens seems to me, tat my heart has been murdered so many times tat tis hole tat form in my heart can nv be replaced or filled up again... i tried to b a murderer, but it doesnt seems to have any effect... the only effect is on myself... if i "murder" someone, the person tat died is me... not him, not her... to try to murder tis type of stuffs, it's just gets messy everytime... i wan a clean clear murder... a clean kill into my own heart, where my heart lies in my hand, and stop beatin and starts bleedin out until it no longer works... the best is where i can lie all alone and die alone... nobody to find me... at least until i have no chance to b save... i dont wan any medic to save me... i dont wan to live... i jux wan e hole in my heart to b fill back and not keep cuttin off bit by bit... as long as i keep seein some stuffs, i will suffer... in silent... no longer in contact, no longer in touch, no longer in view, no longer in my mind, tis are e min to keep me frm goin crazy, frm goin insanity... i dont wan to get into a mental unit to stay... i wan my sanity... but i cant keep my sanity as long as i used to b able... my mind keeps turnin itself around... i already have lots on my plates that my 2 hands are carryin... it's full... there's no space at all for any other stuffs or nonsense u called it, but my mind (being a powerful item) can twist it's way around and manage jux fine to add in some rubbish in... i jux didnt noe tat by cleansing, jux a single editin on fb can still cause a whole lot of rubbish of hurts in once more... so now, there's only 1 ting to be done, and i consider it done... i'm sure tat person wont even notice e no. cause it's jux 1 person less... it doesnt make any difference in e number... wad's 1 to thousand over??? and i doubt he even rmb who he added... and who m i to him??? frm a close friend to now i believe we r strangers... we didnt even smile at each other when we saw each other... jux a nod for recognize... then we are off to do our own stuffs...

wad i dont get it is tis... how can a useless fellow get so many gfs??? yes, sweet talkin is his speciality... but y can all these be buried under me???????? it's all his biz, not mine... i dont wan to feel e hurt, e pain... but i jux cant... and e only solution tat i can tink of is tis... murder myself... attempted suicide... so i can jump off all these projects even... so e load will b lighter... FYI, i'm not sufferin frm depression... pls, dont mixed me wif it... i'm jux in my own sufferin... woein my own sufferin...

i shall end here and continue killin myself and jugglin my plates of projects... let's jux hope there's peace for once...

tis song actually writes bout my feelins for e moment...

[Hankyung]
Neorago (Kyuhyun:Neorago)
Neorago (Kyuhyun:Neorago)
Nan noppunirago (Kyuhyun:Neorago)
Neorago (Kyuhyun:Neorago)

[Donghae]
Dareum saram pilyo obseo nan geunyang neorago
Dashi hanbon mullo bwado nan geunyang neorago
[Kyuhyun]
Imi noneun dareun saranghaet kkaetjiman
Ojol suga obseo dashi dorikilsu obseo oh~
[Yesung]
Nae nunbit chi deuroodon keu sungane
Gaseum gipsul moseul bakdon sungane
[Leeteuk]
Miryeon obshi baro nohreul sontaekhaeseo
Geurae nan neorago

[Siwon]
Oh nan, geu nuga nuga mworaedo naneun sangwan obgado
Geu nuga nuga yokhaedo nomanbarabun dago
[Ryeowook]
Na dashi taeor nandedo ojik noppunirago
(Tic toc tic toc) shigani heullodo
[Kangin]
Oh nan, nol sarang handa malhaedo chonbumanbon malhaedo
Nae gaseumsok dabultago mareun ibsol daldeorok
[Kyuhyun]
Na dashi taeor nande do ojik noppunirago
(Tic toc tic toc) shigani heullodo
Oh nan!

[Eyunhyuk]
Oh oh only for you oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you oh oh only for you
[Eunhyuk/Shindong]
Oh oh only for you oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you
(Neorago)
[Kangin]
Amumaldo pilyo obseo nan geunyang neorago
Nomu neujortago haedo nan geunyang neorago
[Sungmin]
Jal motdwin sarang ingol algo itjiman
Pogi halsu obseo joldae nohchilsu neun obseo ah ah
[Eunhyuk]
Chadichan nae ibsul reul tto burrune
[Shindong]
Ddeukor ubke nohreul chaja wechi ne
[Ryeowook]
Bulobwado daedab obneun noijiman
Nol gidarindago

[Hankyung]
Oh nan, geu nuga nuga mworaedo naneun sangwan obgado
Geu nuga nuga yokhaedo nomanbarabun dago
[Yesung]
Na dashi taeor nandedo ojik noppunirago
(Tic toc tic toc) shigani heullodo

[Sungmin]
Oh nan, nol sarang handa malhaedo chonbumanbon malhaedo
Nae gaseumsok dabultago mareun ibsol daldeorok
[Kyuhyun]
Na dashi taeor nande do ojik noppunirago
(Tic toc tic toc) shigani heullodo
Oh nan!

[Eyunhyuk]
Oh oh only for you oh oh only for you
[Heechul]
Nan neorago neorago naneun (Donghae:wae moreuni? wae moreuni?)
Nan neorago neorago naneun nan~

[Siwon]
Geu nuga nuga mworaedo naneun sangwan obdago
Geu nuga nuga yokhaedo nomanbarabun dago
[Ryeowook]
Na dashi taeor nandedo ojik noppunirago
(Tic toc tic toc) shigani heullodo

[Donghae]
Oh nan, nol sarang handa malhaedo chonbumanbon malhaedo
Nae gaseumsok dabultago mareun ibsol daldeorok
[Kyuhyun]
Na dashi taeor nande do ojik noppunirago
(Tic toc tic toc) shigani heullodo
Oh nan!

[Heechul]
Neorago (Kyuhyun:Neorago)
Neorago (Kyuhyun:Neorago)
Nan noppunirago (Kyuhyun:Neorago)
Neorago

Sorry Sorry Answer - Super Junior

had 2 hrs of skool 2day... so sian, rite??? haix... then worst, next week all e diff projects are due... so sian diao... saw sumtin jux now in skool... felt so hurt once more... then went out jux now... totally no mood... seriously, i tink i should take up anica's "advice" (indirectly), and see if i can work it up... and let it dropped... i shall see if i can make it happen... sry piggie, wasnt really in e mood... but then u too... wadeva... bought some head accessories... to go wif my new year clothes... :)

This is e new buildin in woodlands where i will b learnin... circuit in a carpark... how cool is tat not???


tat's all i guess... gotta go nurse my nose, throat and kill myself by takin lots of medicated sweets... and nurse my hurt... soul searchin time...

Replay - Iyaz ft. Sean Kingston

it doesnt pay good to be sick... yucks... i hate being sick again... stupid idiot flu bug, kept pesterin me non-stop... argh!!! flu so bad yesterday, had a hard time drivin... :( it drove me crazy durin drivin and spanish class yesterday... test, tank god i did it in say 5mins??? hahax... confirm wrong one... but hey, i was tryin my best not to get killed by tis stupid runnin nose... watched a spanish movie... stupid storyline, stupid plot, stupid endin and wadeva stupid u can tink of for it... title : on the verge of a breakdown. it goes to show playboy are super duper common... tat's e only lesson i learnt frm it... other than spanish of course... words can be said so often, so smoothly, without a blink of e eyes, or for u to sense it's a lie, cause it's all u wanted to hear... but when it's all over, u jux dont believe it at first, then realise, tat's it's all on ur stupidity... so how??? suck it up, and b a real human and not lyk in e woman, do some stupid stuffs lyk gettin preg, drink tomatoes juice mixed wif oil, pepper, salt, vinegar, sleepin pills (2 bottles) and so on... anyway, driftin away frm e movie... came home and without eatin dinner (2nd time tis mth???), i slept all e way until 2day... :) arent i great??? and i totally left upe presentation undone and left it to gui feng and yan jun to do... sry guys... and tankx... :)

anyway, 2day... wad to say??? nth much other than my flu became blocked nose... great... :( oh, and my ipod died on me 2day... best... so for e whole day, i cant surf e net, listen to music... zZz... :( oh, and pjm is horrible 2day... cause we had to do sumting tat e whole class has no idea wad e heck she was teachin, hence mayb y so many failed her paper... mmmm-hmmmm... listenin to fahrenheit world's tour album which i wonder when will it come sgp??? oh well... gotta take medication and sleep as much as i can...
nitex... and i wish to scold tat dumb esh lecturer for givin me low attendance jux cause i nv attend for 2 lessons only!!! i repeat... 2 lessons only lor!!! y i so special??? 2 lessons jiu give??? ppl so many lesson, give 1... i 2 lesson jiu give 1????!!!!!! dumb bastard... grrr... because of tat, i shall retink whether i go his lesson 2molo... tankx ar, bastard cher...

爱存在 这美丽新世界 我喜欢 自信的感觉
我看见 你微笑像天使 这就是 爱的奇妙
我愿意 陪在你的身边 让心跳 不会变老
欢迎来 这美丽新世界 让感动 一个一个实现

It's my life - Bon Jovi

currently in skool doin project... skipped class cause dont wish to see lecturer... hahax...
yesterday after work, rushed home to do the projects... felt my head dislocated frm my body... totally no mood to do my projects... but i had to, since i left them all to e very last min... so sad... :( rushed pjm first, only 2day then she says have to hand in next week!!! GRRRRRRR!!!!!! make me rush lyk shit... but i oso haven draw my site layout... xP rushed pym next... due 2day... but guess wad? we forgot to take some shops... zZz... idiot... 2molo spanish test... and wednesday, upe presentation due... thur - break, or mayb helpin out sec 1 campfire... MAYB being e operational word... fri due pym tut 6 & condo project... next week, mon due pjm... fri due upe project...

tell me, wad kind of bloody hectic schedules is tis??? i need a break... tank god i dont have work anymore... geex...

tao hua xiao mei endin is stupid!!! but damn funny...

Body Language - JM

the week is done... and the mood is still down...
work 2molo... lookin forward to it??? nah...
projects due on monday... cant wait for it??? nah...

wad i wan now, is a good nite of sleep, which yesterday didnt really provide enough for me... :(
i wan e time to sleep and dream-endlessly of good dreams... not nightmares, but dreams... or even if it's blank mind, tat's good... cause it's e only way i can escape reality, regardless of e situations... :(

How do you sleep? - Jesse McCartney

Monday~

my 500th post... goes to show how free i actually m... -.-
first day of sem 2, term 2... wad's interestin??? nth... oh wait, got back papers... not too happy wif my results... but then again, i kinda of expected it??? didnt really study a lot for esh and pjm... so i got wad i deserve... :( serve me rite... oh well, better sharpen the brain the next time around... geex...
went to BTP for KFC for lunch, then watched them pool-ed... cabbed back to skool for pjm... slept, for i was too tired... woke up to do her qns for so many ppl failed her paper... hahax...
went to PS after skool for cotton on & body for a quick shoppin trip... :))) love the dress... cause it's simple!!! hahax... came home for dinner and to do my spanish... gettin the hang of it as long as i continue to practice... hahax...
off to record those words!!! :)

-feelin off recently... when will i get my feet back under me???


Tuesday~

blog on tis same post seein tat it will b short too...
got back the same instructor!!!!!!!! damn happy... but got a different car instead... so for 15mins, i was tinkin which instructor i got man... emo lor... then saw tat instructor and then he saw me, he crapped rubbish wif me... lol... he sayin i'm more rubbish lyk him already... hahax... kept mountin curbs... then he say y i go mount, wan to re-live thailand road ar??? hahax... but fun leh... hatin circuit more and more... the speed so damn slow... >.< next lesson still long long way...
i'm so gettin e hang of spanish man... cher said tat our class is gettin better... hahax... and we learnt a vulgarity in Spanish 2day... hahax... and the whole lesson, the guys r jux keep repeatin tat word... LOL! hmwrk is as per usual, a pile... -.- and best, next week written test... gotta rmb all e spellin and write a paragraph man... haix... gotta practise it everyday to make it smooth... :))) hardwork, tat's a tough job...
damn, super lazy piggie for keep bullyin me... :(

Run this town

i hate it NOW! when 2molo is monday and it's e first day of skool when in e bloody first place, i have no holiday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!

nth much bout work, jux tinkin bout it will make me wan to roll my eyes... not tat e friends there are evil or bad (which they are half the time... bullyin me...) :'( but they are helpful... jux tat... haix... nvm...

skool is startin 2molo and i'm all set to collect stars once more... sianx... haix... i wonder how many stars i have collected last term... hahax... anyway, 2nd common test for pjm due to everyone(almost) studyin for hrf and not carin for pjm... zZz... -.- projects are hittin my ass to get me workin, but hell, i'm not still... i'm jux gearin up for my end of sem exams... not yet... still got time to slack... hahax... i have my 6pgs of spanish hmwrk, but guess wad??? i have only done e 1st pg... pjm mini project still doin... goodie...
damn, i'm seriously becomin my nick by super lazy piggie... -.- ARGH!!!!!!!! no no no!!! mux work hard and play hard liao!!! no more slackin piggie... it's hardworkin gal... *wink*

¿Cómo estas? ¡fata!

adidos!

Whatcha Say - Jason Derulo

the first day of a new year, the start of a new year...
stuffs did??? work... sian diao...
supposed to go out and have fun 2day!!! but got tied down...
and tanks to tis and yesterday, someone is angry wif me... :(
ah pek dont wan to talk to me... saddist guy sia... :( jux cause i dont wan to countdown wif him... :(
dont wanna friend ah pek already if he continue tis way... sry la, yesterday too tired to go out on a date wif u ma... plus, who ask u to msg so late??? kay la, if i continue to say bout tis, later u say is ur fault... big bully, everytime lyk tat one... *pouts*

anyway, went to work... had laughter as per usual la... got bully as per usual la... got again "attached" to another guy yet again la... got lots of rubbish goin on between the few of us when we are bored la... and so on... but i bet it will lose to a day out wif super lazy piggie... :((( i learnt my lesson... the first lesson of the year... off day is when u have to go out wif super lazy piggie to enjoy the day... :)))

the past 4 days is supposed to be very busy too... but guess wad??? i ended up rottin at home... monday and tuesday suppose to b do projects and hmwrk, but didnt... tuesday went out wif dad and sis after drivin... (previous(s) post) wednesday supposed to go out wif idiot but he got trainin at sentosa... *rolls eyes* some lousy poly have to go there and train sia... Oops... not lousy, ppl's poly 1st leh... *rolls eyes* anyway, rot at home and did my hmwrk... :))) by then, i cant take thursday at home liao... hahax... so asked lovelies out... some dumb gal, who claims to be clever, is not in sgp... zZz... and best, she follows tao hua, booked us for next year countdown... -.- 2010 jux arrived, she wans to countdown to 2011... lame... hahax... gotta planned every single damn thing for next year already... organiser, where in my rm r u??? and i need to buy e 2010 calendar to b placed in my organiser... :))) cause the cute cute one i have, is too big... :( hahax...

kay, tis is a super duper random post... and rubbish post for those who do not understand... hahax...
Jux here wishin u tis...
May 2010 be a good year for u and me... :) Cya soon (hopefully within tis year...)

Nitex!