mind blowin...

Hello!

guess i'm still back to blog anyway... haix...
really confuse wif myself... i nv doubt myself to tis extend b4...
i seriously nv thot tat i have such poor judgment... i really nv thot of tis at all...
i didnt even noe tat i'm such a good person to lie to... in the face or even thru sms...
i didnt even noe tat i can get cheated by u over and over again and yet still willingly let u cheat me...

All these didnt jux came to me as and when i wan...
All of these are jux the cause of me walkin out of the hse...

anyway, u ppl mux b wonderin y i started sayin all these...
cause when i went home, i still cried non-stop... dont noe y... jux cause i feel lyk cryin... mayb is cause jacob black cause me to start crying... (which i'm proud to say i read finish the whole series liao...)
since i felt tat stayin at home causin me a bad headache, i went off to prime to buy some snacks for 2nite... (since i have to do my mes hmwrk, cats ppt and so on...)
wanted to cool myself down, so took e long way... walked past the bball court, and to my surprise, yes, he was there... i didnt expect him to b there, if not i wont take tat way...
and cause is he the one tat told me tat he has trainin every tue to sat, so tiring... and so on... so of course, u wont expect him to b there...
YET, i saw him there, playin wif a few other kids... not our age, but way younger...
Tat seriously snapped all my control... i suddenly broke into a run and ran away... i ran all the way to prime, buy and was about to take the shortcut home... but i wanted to buy bubble tea, so no choice to walked there back... and i ran jux past the court lyk tat...
i'm pretty sure he nv see me... cause as usual, he always cant see me... is lyk i'm invisible to him... the only time he ever saw me, is when i went to his hse... tat was it... i suppose...
the pressure was too great... i nv felt it snapped lyk tis... came home, didnt feel any good as i thot i should after tat walk... end up, i locked myself up and cried...
guess, those sweet words are true at all... too standard a line to ever let me fall true b4...

tat all... i really dont feel control to write any other things at all...

Ciao!!!