listen to the heart/soul

blam... life's a pain sumtimes, when u found tins out frm other sources... it hurts u more to find out urself than to actually hear it in person... or at least tat wad i feel... clam it seems frm e outside, but a mixture of feeling stir in me... it isnt sweet but it had to be rushin wif bitterness, gashin wif sourness, sprinklin wif spicyness, jux to make sure e wound nv recovers... yes, i noe, i'm diggin into e past yet AGAIN, but it wont have happen if i didnt enter tat area... and it wont happen if i happened to b rushin for time, but i was too FREE, so i read it... every single word... and i rmb... memories start unleashin itself frm e mental cage tat it's locked in... pains, wounds and hurt started re-surfacin itself, makin it harder to push back into e cage... sweetness, now, it seems even further away... unsure-rity makes it even harder to control, and messes e whole situation up... life is in even bigger mess than b4... haix... no point explainin it all out, i shall jux eat at my own misery... my soul tells me it aint worth it to live anymore... i wanted to disagree wif it, but it seems harder to do so than b4... and i might jux take tat one step, jux tat one step, and follow my soul...


yes, i'm goin to jb in a few hrs time but i'm feelin tis way... mayb sumtin might happen to me in jb, and u wont b able to see me... so i wont b able to see u too, and feel e hurt...