so it's jux e 4th week on e job, but i have yet to undergo all e trainin required yet... but soon, i will... startin 2molo... endin sat... and all e assessments comin up... haix... worst is tat i haven take my pos assessment & i already saw so so so many errors and mistakes tat frighten me liao... haix... worst tat e longer it drags, the lesser confidence i have in passin... haix...
wad's more is tat everyday end up doin e same ting... not tat i dun enjoy, jux tat, haix... i dun wish to be caught in e office politics so early, but haix... end up been dragged in... now i need a way to get myself set up rite as e fence-sitter... and i cant do it much wif so limited movin space... :( have to keep tinkin of e diff ways to get out of it... haix...
too many tings on my mind now... thou i got a better hold of it now, still, my mood now becomes rather unstable, jux cause i'm tryin to divide myself into so many parts... sumhow, i thot as we aged, we would have more control n freedom of ourself, but unfortunately, no... i'm still so controlled tat i can hardly moved... haix...
on another hand, i ran out of ideas to make or even to buy... i really dunno wad to give to nic on the 22nd... haix... tink either i started workin, i ran out of ideas and brain juice to tink of weird stuffs, or to tink of creative ideas... i'm either too exhausted to even squeeze it out... haix... let's hope thruout e week i might tink of sumtin then... haix...
i hope tat on top of all these, i might still be able to comfort him n understand his probs, pei him thru... haix... i jux hope tat i'll still be help to him instead of a burden... haix... n better not increase his worries...
